Respecting one or another/update

Hey,

Lets start off with a pray I found on line – I have a desire to start praying more like this, because sometimes I am not sure if the ways I do it is a prayer. I want to give Him more thanks than I ask from him. He already granted me a lot.

PRAYER TO MY GARUDIAN ANGEL

Angel of God, my guardian dear, to whom His love commits me here, ever this night be at my side, to light and guard, to rule and guide. Amen.

I hope everyone had a great weekend, I have some time before going to my dad’s (for those who don’t know, I help him out till he gets his back surgery – and we are waiting on that, and will help him even more after the surgery. Last summer I sacrificed my summer – I am not complaining, to help him, and I will do it again because he is my dad and I love him I will do anything for my parents)

I completed February’s reading, which makes me pretty excited!

Romans 12:16

Live in harmony with one another; do not be haughty.

I wish people would follow that – it makes me think about people who disrespect one or another, its everywhere. I see it in families, work, shopping, friends, everywhere even if it is not all in my life. why would people treat each other like that? Some people get a kick out of being extremely mean to one or another just to get a kick. Some things I will never understand, is this. I hear about people who is mean to each other at work places, I am pretty independence at work, but I don’t have a doubt in mind there are people who are disrespectful to one or another, I don’t associate with those who are disrespectful.

I am noticing even more negative things going around these days, its either A. I am getting much more positive B. I am realizing I am leaving that lifestyle I was in, it could be both.

Another reason I made this blog, because I wanted to share to the world about my thoughts, my experiences, and what I go through on a normal basic, I may update often but I am the type of person who has a lot to say, has a lot on the mind. And a couple already told me I was an inspiration, so I thought I would just share more! :-)

Last night, all night I had bad dreams about suicide, and finding a bloody cooking pan, it made me scared because its like is something bad going to happen? So I went online to find a prayer, I didn’t know what prayer, but I found a prayer I will memorize for me to say nightly (I really need to try to remember once I get to the habit I will – make it a route.) I know I have been sleeping better last week compared to a few weeks ago.

This morning, I worked out on my Gazelle (a Tony Little work out machine) for 40 minutes, every week since Christmas, I have upped my minutes by 5 minutes, my goal – an hour a day for 5 days a week.  (I want to leave my body for the weekend to rest.) and I already notice the difference in my body, I am looking healthier, and I am getting toned. I am also doing 150 crunches every day, I think I will up it to 200 a day.  Now, if only if I knew what channel the Catholic Channel is, I just cant find it on my Comcast! :-(

Have a blessed day/week.

God Bless

90 Minutes in Heaven

Hey,

Well, I knew I would write about this book I finished yesterday, it took me a little while when it is a short true story.

“90 Minutes in Heaven”  by Don Piper

I recommend you to read this – this was amazing, very touching, a man who gets into a really bad car accident and dies and he went to Heaven and came back to life, this book tells you how powerful a prayer can be. Learning about what he has to go through, and his experiences. I loved this book. The really cool part was, every chapter begun he had a verse from the Bible, and it relates to it.

Another thing, I started a new journal, instead of Dear Journal, I am writing to God, I thought that might be a prayer as well. I am hoping this will also make me have a better communication with Him.

Yesterday I went to the sportsmanship show with my husband, I am not really into that stuff, but we had fun anyways, had a corn dog, some weird food LOL,  I had fun, we signed up for some winnings, hoping to get, some couple night get aways.

Today, I will be traveling up north, Bellevue,  for a play, since he has to work I will meet him there. I am pretty excited for that, its supposed to be a geeky play “Dr. Horrible sing along” but my husband IS a geek so it will be fun!

God Bless – Have a great weekend!

Jesus's Love Letter

Dearly Beloved Friend:
How are you? I just had to send you this letter
to tell you how much
I love you and care for you.
I saw you yesterday as you were walk-
ing with your friends.
I waited all day, hoping you would walk
and talk with me also.


As evening drew near, I gave you a sunset to
close your day, and a cool breeze to rest you.
Then I waited, but you never came.
And yes, it hurt me, but I still love you
because I am your friend.


I saw you fall asleep last night,
and I longed to touch your brow, so
I spilled moonlight upon your pillow and your
face...Again I waited, wanting to rush down so
we could talk.
I have so many gifts for you.


You awakened late this morning and rushed off
for the day.
My tears were in the rain. Today you looked
so sad, so alone.
It makes my heart ache because I understand.
My friends let me down and hurt me many times,
but I love you.


I try to tell you in the quiet green grass.
I whisper it in the leaves and trees,
and breathe it in the color of the flowers.
I shout it to you in the mountain streams,
and give the birds love songs to sing.
I clothe you with warm sun-
shine and perfume the air.


My love for you is deeper than the
oceans and bigger than the biggest want or
need you could ever have.


We will spend eternity in heaven.
I know how hard it is on earth.
I really know, because I was there,
and I want to help you.


My Father wants to help you, too.
He's that way, you know. Just
call me, ask me, talk to me.
It is your decision...I have chosen you,
and because of this I will wait...Because I love you.
Your Friend,
Jesus

Getting Tested

Hey,

I just had an urge to write a second entry today – after a while people were just still throwing attacks, I really think I am being tested. And its not going to break me down, in a few hours I will delete my Bloopdiary account, people are still trying to throw attacks. So, therefore, I didn’t think I said anything when I say I understood why people think the way they do, but doesn’t mean that I believe in that way either, and they choose to take it the wrong way.

Matthew 21:22

And whatever you ask in a prayer, you will receive, if you have faith

That is exactly what is going on, my faith is being tested. People don’t have to agree with me, and I don’t have to agree with them, but I don’t throw personal attacks (at least none that anyone has informed me, I would have appogized and try to change that because no one needs a negative response.)

I am still praying for many things, for my parents, for my husband, for his family, for myself. I am so motivated I want to meet more people. I know I shouldn’t go through this alone, I want someone to walk with me, someone to study the Bible with, someone to have discussion, we all have questions and comments, I need someone for that.

I am proud of what I have been doing. I am proud of myself for not smoking, or having a desire to want to smoke. I am proud of myself going through the healthy ways – I have gotten a Gazelle (tony little) for Christmas, and I have been working on it everyday each week I go up 5 more minutes, today I went on for 35 minutes. My goal – 45 mins to 60 mins a day. 5 days a week, the weekends are my breaks.

I will write when I have that urge for a related topic.

I have started reading “90 Minutes in Heaven” by don piper – I just started, it seems like its really good – and I cannot wait to finish it – I will post up what I thought of it. it is a true story about life and death.

God Bless

Confessions/background history

Hey,

I thought I would share a part from the Leviticus book.

Leviticus 4:27 – 31

If anyone of the common people sins unwittingly in doing any one of the things which the LORD has commanded not to be done, and is guilty, when the sin which he has committed is made known to him he shall bring for his offering, a goat a female without blemish, for his sin which he has committed. Ad he shall lay his hand on the head of the sin offering and kill the sin offering in the place of burnt offering. And the priest shall take some of its blood with his finger put it on the horns of the altar of burnt offering, and pour out the rest of its blood and base of the altar. And all its fat he shall remove, as the fat is removed from the peace offerings, and the priest shall burn it upon the altar for a pleasing odor to the LORD; and the priest shall make atonement for him, and he shall be forgiven.

This verse was found when I was posting something on facebook, and my sister and a friend didn’t know why “go through another man to be forgiven” I am Roman Catholic, we are very traditional when it comes to things, like any other church can be. So I was sick and I decided to read the Bible and read ahead on my Daily Catholic Bible, which I was glad I did, and I actually found this the next day my gut was telling to look, just read you will find the answer. And this explains WHY we do the confessions. Which is pretty cool. I was very excited when I actually found the answer. And it does make better sense, I felt so clean when I went to my confessions a while ago.

I normally go yearly for palm Sunday but let me go back a bit – and give my background.

I was raised Catholic I belong to a church in my hometown, I had my communtion, confirmation and everything (my mom even encouraged me to look around if I wanted to but I wanted to stay Catholic) so I committed to my Catholic, I am St. Joan of Arc. I picked her because she was a fighter, I had to fight through out my life because I am deaf. Not that it is a blame, but I had to struggle through my hard times, but she reminds me to keep going you will get there. By the time I graduated from highschool, my mom no longer had me to go to church, I even went to Sunday school, but because it was harder on me when they didn’t have an interp, my mom homeschooled me for it, and I went to youth groups had interp middle school and highschool. The two times I did not have to go to church was Christmas and Easter, it was the time when everyone wanted to go to church it was almost impossible to find a seating and parking, but we thought okay those people who goes to church those time of the year we can just skip it. but that was also when my mom would be late for everything.

When I moved out of my moms house I moved in with my husband – we were a boyfriend girlfriend couple before wed, it was one of the mistakes we both made, he was not Catholic, but we both moved in for wrong reasons, he didn’t want to find another roommate and I was not getting along with my parents at the time, I was 22 when I moved out of the house, and we were only dating for about three and half months. I was lucky things turned out well and I married him. That was when I was really walking away from the path.

I started to go back a lil more when we gotten engaged he converted to Catholic, which I was proud of him, then after we gotten married, we had a Catholic wedding and everything, after we came back from our honeymoon, we stopped going. The entire time I was gone from my moms house I would go to confession yearly. So I noticed things gotten worst when it came to me and my husband, I became extremely negative, I smoked more, I swore and everything, there was some issues with me and my in laws and I let it get to me, I felt so ashamed, and I also forgotten how to forgive, all this happened within about 4 years, and I thought about how much I really missed going to church, and being a better person, I started to read the Bible at the end of my Daily – and I am almost done with February right now, I go to church weekly, I went to confessions – I felt so clean, I think more clearly, I am not struggling as much we still have our struggles, but with Him, it helps. I feel so much positive.

I am going through a tough time for a one person – I work early shifts like at 4 am to 8 then I go to my dad’s house take care of him – we are still waiting on his surgery, hes having a risky surgery on his back. And I am terrified. I take care of our animals, my husband has a long commute for work and he works 40 or more a week. So therefore, I do the housework (I don’t mind, I mean afterall I am a housewife), and our three animals (2 cats and a pup), and I cook dinner, it does sound busy. But I do enjoy reading, and I have the NOOK and I love it, and I enjoy those moments when I can have those hot baths, I love to pamper myself, but I seem to enjoy it more when it comes to being more positive.

I thank God every day – I try to remember to do that – for everything he has given me. My prayers were answered when I wanted my husband to go to church, he needs to I understand he wont go weekly but I do, I want him to go often or more… and another one was answered, I wanted to meet more people, there is young adults group that is gonna be returning soon, which I cannot wait.

After confession I felt so much cleaner, and it all makes sense why we do what we do! :-)

I am now talking more about God, the verses and everything related, more often than I ever did. And I think of it as a good thing because I kept it hidden before, which was a bad idea, but I also didn’t want to get into fights with other people who doesn’t follow the ways.

My friends didn’t really know what I did, or anything really, I had a Catholic wedding, I think it really wowed them. I even went to retreats, camps and all those things growing up and I enjoyed them! I want to be more involved with my church, but I know with my limitations, but the more I try and pray it will happen when I try.

As I mentioned on the last blog – I left my Bloopdiary – it was time to leave, I had it for a long time,  but people treat each other with disrespect, very negative, I just cannot be around that. I knew it was my time to go, and I hope to have better experiences here! They changed a lot in the past few years and its sad.

Thank you for your time to read this!

God Bless

Making New Commitments

Hey,

I just did something that wasnt easy, leaving a old account i had for years. it became so negative, i just cannot stand it anymore, i will miss my friends from there, but i am pretty sure i will go back and just read thier blogs and not update.

I need to be at a place where i feel free to write what i want, that includes my views, i am a roman catholic, i will post up verses from the Bible, have opinon, and discussions and etc. I do not want to cause any trouble, but i do like a good discussions.

I want to meet new people for sure.

I will be looking forward to writing more into this, if i meet new people here - its fate :-)

I would love to find new people here, i am still very new to this site, if any tips, please do let me know!

God Bless