Trying to host a party

Hey

Today is Saturday, it is 913 am, I already cleaned the kitchen, did the bathroom, started laundry, I cleaned the living room, I need to start getting ready for the day and go run some errands then come home, work on Landry still, and maybe throw in a work out – I am trying to learn to run in my own home, it went okay yesterday, I wanna keep going for half hour today – if I could just try to do it for 45 minutes a day, I would LOVE to have the runner’s addiction but I will NOT let my ankles limit me.

I have taken a big leap, offering to the facebook world – I want to have someone host a party for my work, buy a prize and make something, for the door prize, it would be a fun thing, I really would like this business to grow so I can have a side job. Plus it would support my beading, I cannot afford it out of my pocket money – so the money I earn goes DIRECTLY to the beads. Nothing else. I will try ebay soon, for the left over that didn’t sell.

Well, gotta get to the bank – pay day time! (well yesterday but whatever LOL)

Amber

It never ends! :-)

Morning!

Good start already – I gotten up at 445 and I did an attempt of a jog/walk but sadly it was for 15 minutes I was barefoot, I need to find my braces and wear shoes – I was really out of shape, and I stretched and I was not flexible, I am not surprised if I gain something back, but at least I still fit my clothes *whew* I need to get back in that route, so therefore I am enjoying my pineapple strawberry smoothie for breakfast :-D.

Last night, Bible Study, I was feeling SO good when I left the church last night, not only I met someone new, but it was something I needed after so long, it makes me so motivated to get better, I feel awful because most of the summer I didn’t even think about God or Jesus, it was mentioned about following Jesus leave everything behind, none of this “wait let me…” of course I am a perfect example. It shouldn’t be a struggle – which is why I am going to bring my Bible to work, and pick a random book I will close my eyes and randomly pick one (like picking name in the phone book) after the Mathew chap 9 of course (the reading for the next group meet)

I think I have a busy weekend ahead of me, which is pretty sad because I am not 100% sure what I am gonna do but that’s okay. I think in the morning I will try for that run again, if I start losing weight, I will be doing stomach crunches and push ups again so my cores would be getting the work outs.

I feel much better already, not much of a negativity at all – I am kinda looking forward to doing housework tmw! I do need to vacuum the living room, clean the kitchen floors, and do some laundry, and clean the bathroom – not much.

Quote from The Confident Woman of the day:

Work out (cultivate, carry out to the goal, and fully complete) your own salvation with reverence and awe and trembling (self-distrust, with serious caution, tenderness of conscience, watchfulness against temptation, timidly shrinking from whatever might offend God and discredit the name of Christ) – Philippians 2:12

Which is pretty funny, that I am talking about making changes of my life J

Prayer of the day:

Lord, I know that I am far from perfection and need to keep changing into Your image. Regardless of what others think, I will be bold to take action. Amen.

One of the things I really do need to change is to talk to Him more, He is always there for us, and I should be talking/praying more. I don’t want to end up with the whole “okay I pray, nothing bad happens to me, I am a good Catholic” it doesn’t work that way. I want to still be a better person/Catholic. I missed church almost the entire summer, which is really bad, and I don’t have a good excuse for it, I should have MADE time. This is what happens if I get side tracked, I lose something that I don’t want to lose. I shouldn’t sleep in because I don’t feel like getting up, Mass is usually on Saturday nights at 5 pm – I need to find out when church starts at 9 am instead of 10 am on Sundays, I  pretty much prefer to go to the 5 pm Mass. The next two Saturdays I am booked – but perhaps I should stop making plans/committing on Saturday evenings, hmm that’s a good thought. Easy said than done, all I could hope is that people would understand that if they ask and I say “unable to due to…”

I am extremely blessed, and I should not have taken it for granted – He has given me 2 families, friends, a husband, our pets, I KNOW he helped me with the job I have – I don’t want to keep taking, I have already committed to a Saturday after Thanksgiving for Caring for Kids *yes!* to stand on the street all day holding signs/collecting money from ppl in cars. It will be fun! Diane was so happy that Chris’s work donated A LOT of school supplies for the program. I am even considering helping a friend out with youth groups! Yep – on Sundays, help plan activities, I may even go to the confirmation retreat and run a group :-D I will have to start writing what I would say about my Faith. It would be REALLY nice if I could get more involved with church. I really do miss it!

Have a great day/Weekend!

Amber

It never ends! :-)

Morning!

Good start already – I gotten up at 445 and I did an attempt of a jog/walk but sadly it was for 15 minutes I was barefoot, I need to find my braces and wear shoes – I was really out of shape, and I stretched and I was not flexible, I am not surprised if I gain something back, but at least I still fit my clothes *whew* I need to get back in that route, so therefore I am enjoying my pineapple strawberry smoothie for breakfast :-D.

Last night, Bible Study, I was feeling SO good when I left the church last night, not only I met someone new, but it was something I needed after so long, it makes me so motivated to get better, I feel awful because most of the summer I didn’t even think about God or Jesus, it was mentioned about following Jesus leave everything behind, none of this “wait let me…” of course I am a perfect example. It shouldn’t be a struggle – which is why I am going to bring my Bible to work, and pick a random book I will close my eyes and randomly pick one (like picking name in the phone book) after the Mathew chap 9 of course (the reading for the next group meet)

I think I have a busy weekend ahead of me, which is pretty sad because I am not 100% sure what I am gonna do but that’s okay. I think in the morning I will try for that run again, if I start losing weight, I will be doing stomach crunches and push ups again so my cores would be getting the work outs.

I feel much better already, not much of a negativity at all – I am kinda looking forward to doing housework tmw! I do need to vacuum the living room, clean the kitchen floors, and do some laundry, and clean the bathroom – not much.

Quote from The Confident Woman of the day:

Work out (cultivate, carry out to the goal, and fully complete) your own salvation with reverence and awe and trembling (self-distrust, with serious caution, tenderness of conscience, watchfulness against temptation, timidly shrinking from whatever might offend God and discredit the name of Christ) – Philippians 2:12

Which is pretty funny, that I am talking about making changes of my life J

Prayer of the day:

Lord, I know that I am far from perfection and need to keep changing into Your image. Regardless of what others think, I will be bold to take action. Amen.

One of the things I really do need to change is to talk to Him more, He is always there for us, and I should be talking/praying more. I don’t want to end up with the whole “okay I pray, nothing bad happens to me, I am a good Catholic” it doesn’t work that way. I want to still be a better person/Catholic. I missed church almost the entire summer, which is really bad, and I don’t have a good excuse for it, I should have MADE time. This is what happens if I get side tracked, I lose something that I don’t want to lose. I shouldn’t sleep in because I don’t feel like getting up, Mass is usually on Saturday nights at 5 pm – I need to find out when church starts at 9 am instead of 10 am on Sundays, I  pretty much prefer to go to the 5 pm Mass. The next two Saturdays I am booked – but perhaps I should stop making plans/committing on Saturday evenings, hmm that’s a good thought. Easy said than done, all I could hope is that people would understand that if they ask and I say “unable to due to…”

I am extremely blessed, and I should not have taken it for granted – He has given me 2 families, friends from elem school, a husband, our pets, I KNOW he helped me with the job I have – I don’t want to keep taking, I have already committed to a Saturday after Thanksgiving for Caring for Kids *yes!* to stand on the street all day holding signs/collecting money from ppl in cars. It will be fun! Diane was so happy that Chris’s work donated A LOT of school supplies for the program. I am even considering helping a friend out with youth groups! Yep – on Sundays, help plan activities, I may even go to the confirmation retreat and run a group :-D I will have to start writing what I would say about my Faith. It would be REALLY nice if I could get more involved with church. I really do miss it!

Have a great day/Weekend!

Amber

Rushing Morning :-D

Morning,

WHAT a morning! It hasn’t even begun yet – I get up at 430, and its 545 now, I made chris’s lunch and did a walking work out my goal was 30 mins, but he texted me at 520 something, I started at 5, and he forgotten his laptop rush into town to give It to him, just in that hour and 15 minutes of a rush, tells me today ill have a busy day. :-D

I make good smoothies for myself, I decided to start having smoothies – I just found the RIGHT amount of juice/type of juice just makes it so yummy. And it has fiber so I need that in my system, I started to remember to take my vitamins, I am not on pre national vitamins, I’m on mutli something for her. So hopefully that will help out my system. My weight loss thing has been a dud, so I am trying to get back to the route since the last two three weeks has been kinda hard for me to work out. I cannot wait for summer to be O V E R  - my allegeries has been VERY bad this year.

Today is gonna be a good day – employer’s appreciation day and a BBQ at work, and Bible Study starts up again *yay* have I mentioned how much I love my job lately? Well I LOVE MY JOB – and I know today is gonna be a easy going day for work :-D

I am so excited – my walk in closet/craft room is ALMOST done – it needs to be sanded and carpet!! The floors are in, the walls are back in, and it needs to be painted and put shelves on! YAY – just matter in weeks I can start doing stuff in that room AND I have been wanting to HOST a girl’s game night once again last one was in May – with just 4 people and Travis – it was a lot of fun! :-D I miss hosting things.

I think I will invite maybe 4 people this time, since I am limited on chairs, and make it a cocktail night too :-D since my Magic Bullet does its good job. (it’s a blender I use it for my smoothie every morning)

Quote of the day from the book:

To everything there is a season, and a time for every matter or purpose under heaven:… a time to cast away stones and a time to gather stones together,…a time to get and a time to lose, a time to keep and a time to cast away. – Ecclesiates 3:1-6

The prayer of the quote of the day:

Lord, my time is in Your hands. Help me be fearless as I face change and embrace change. I want to be vibrant and fully alive. Amen.

This is a good quote for people like me – highly stressed. There is a change in my life I can change to become more stressfree, one of them, is not letting things get to me, even the smallest things. I really do need to stop worrying about what people think of me. It is hard to do that, because I try to make everyone happy, and I shouldn’t be feeling like that, and struggle, if they aren’t happy with who I am, what I do, then they don’t need to be around me.  Hopefully everyone will accept me for me. :-D

Have a blessed day

Amber

Admitting I have a Problem...

The first step is addmiting if one has a problem

I have a problem - let the healing begin. i need to be a better person, more pure, no more swearing, no more angry moods, why do i need that in my life? i noticed i have failed to stay on the *right* path...

once agian the Devil has lead me wrong - i need to get back to the Good path, with Jesus i was so close and i wandered off.... *shame on me* yet i am still far from the bad.

Today- i will start with a postive day - time to focus on myself and God - our relationship shouldnt have been maintained, it needs to still grow.

Bleh..,

Morning,

I know it is 5 am – and I have been starting on the walking work out – and I am gonna get back to it – for a half hour – I figure I will do it while watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer, I am already on season 7 – I haven’t watched that show for years.

I already had my smoothie – I cannot wait for Bible Study again tmw, it starts up after about a month, I cant wait to see the people there.

I am just lacking on energy and I just want to sleep all the time.

This week is not gonna be a good week for me, it has already been stressful, I gotten a cold sore *sighs* I just cannot wait to catch a break, perhaps I will sleep in on Saturday.

Hasn’t been the best morning – I was woken up so freaking early… ah well, I need to get the coffee started so I can get loaded up on caffeine.

I just need to remind myself, I am a good person, I am friendly, loving, caring, warm, wonderful person, even on days/weeks like this when I am very down/negative. Now I just need a reminder -.-

I haven’t texted/received text as much as before, my phone batteries actually last long…. Nice eh?

Facebook - Bad Addiction/Overreacting

Okay,

Facebook is becoming a problem for me... *again* I must learn to BITE my freakin tongue. Not only i have been called on for "not very Christian" of course that hits me in a soft spot i needed to remove a post. I keep saying things out of anger, WHY?! i was furious over the dogs that chased my cats into a very tall tree the night before, and she could have died from heat stroke/starvation, of course, it isnt the dog's fault, it was her own. but shes okay, i think - i am going to clear out my phone *once again* so it has no history of facebook on it, so i HOPE it will help me not want to get on it as often. it is a pointless addiction to have...

becomming offensive, my language has been nasty, my mood/opinion arent very pleasant, sheesh no one wants that. i think i need to take a BIG step back from Facebook world.

I just dont get why its addicting... I will have to try my best not to update my status, perhaps do it like once a week? i dunno.

My over reaction is getting out of hand, it could cost me things that i dont want to lose.

Home sweet home? naw

It has been a few days since i have updated - I have been more motivated to blog more often. Which is a good thing, I know half of the readers do not have an account/comments, but that is okay :-) my life should be updated to find out what I am doing these days - if I could I could encourage more of you to have blogs so I can keep updated :-)

well, for starters my closet (well craft room, but it is gonna be designed as a huge walk in closet) is gong very good - i am hoping for a second bathroom soon, just a toilet and sink/mirror *thats it* sharing bathrooms is getting too hard.

I just gotten home from ocean shores yesterday, of course - I did not wanna leave, i would love to move back up there, I know there aren’t much to do there, but it is too peaceful, and I love it, I enjoyed just sitting on the couch, having *nothing* to rush for and read while ppl were getting ready, and I was at peace, here is just so much crap. I miss having weekends of nothing - and I miss reading. I finished Angels&Demons by Dan Brown - it is a good book, i decided to charge my nook up, and download a book from the library, i can tell my library doesn’t have alot of e books - i cannot wait for them to get more books. after this weekend, no... after NEXT weekend, i will have no plans till thanksgiving i am hoping to keep it that way for a lil while. i do miss sleeping in, not worrying about getting up, this weekend, i am gonna meet up with a friend, and i have my niece's 13th birthday party (she is 13 already, i cannot believe it... time does fly) i have some ideas what she would like for her birthday - now it is time to try to tug chris out of that kid mode into the teen mode for the shopping lol. then later on this year, my nephew is gonna be 13... wow, i only have two youngsters are still under 10... okay... but the rest are teenagers, i actually feel pretty... old... lol

i switched purses - i love my new purse, i am getting used to the strap across the chest, i think i like that type of purse more than *carry* it with my hands/arms.

I discovered... how NASTY Tully's coffee is, man i am staying loyal to starbucks, and i use their coffee to make my coffee every morning.

i am feeling *MUCH* better, just pretty much 100% but i am experiencing chest pains, i looked it up, but it doesnt look like its a big deal... but if it comes back i ll take some meds, its like PCS or something like that, not supposed to last for more than 24 hours, it is common for kids/teenagers, adults can get them but not as common as the others.

my cat - has been chased to a tree last night, she could have died from heat stroke, i was beyond mad when i gotten a text from my parents, of course it makes me dislike dogs *even more* but i know its not entirely their faults, i mean thats my baby, if she died, or stretch i would unbelievably heart broken the other two cats are younger they are good. i rushed to see her, she was sore, sappy, hot, tired, few days she should be good as new, and she needs a bath... bad.

for the dogs - i never really cared for dogs, there are few dogs i can tolerate/like, i dont like buffy sometimes, shes too annoying - i am a cat person period. but i am prone to get bitten/attacked by dogs i have been attacked by:

mutts, pitbull, great dane (yeah its a bit hard to believe a great dane would bite but any dog is a threat), terrier, rot rieler, like i said muttS so few of those. been bitten since i was 3, i just cannot deal with dogs. there are only TWO dogs i can trust in the house/room ALONE with me - Roxy and Buffy (just because i have known them since they were a pup, i know they wont harm me but i cannot say to other dogs that i actually dont know or very well). family's dogs, friend's dogs, ex boyfriend's dog, strangers ' dogs has bitten me...

i need to end this - time to start getting ready to clock in for work. :-D

Why Coach? Someone asked

Hey guys!

Okay – someone asked me a very good question the other day about Coach – WHY do I like coach so much.

I remember seeing my very first coach by someone else who had one, and she explained to me how good it was, and ever since, I was maybe…. 17? I wanted a coach, there were some I liked some I didn’t, then I started carrying purses when I was 19 I know pretty late of age, but my family had a point, I am no longer a kid, I need to start carrying my ID and etc. it got easy for me to carry a purse. I would buy one here and there from the mall, but never coach because it was so much money, this was before I knew about the outlet mall.

The cheapest one I saw was 200 some, it was just too much money.

I met Chris, married him, he didn’t understand “hundred dollars…?! For a PURSE?!” I couldn’t convince him why.

When I got my first purse last year, it is black (currently using it now), I fell in love with it, I noticed so many differences, it was black, it wasn’t wacky colors, it wasn’t funky, it was professional, and I was working at Target at the time, and I was trying to find a new job as well. I couldn’t show up at a interview with a flashy leopard print purse. They are still cute, but it wasn’t impressionable. I used that purse for 7 months, and I saved up my Christmas money, my paychecks from Target and bought a new one, a spring/summer, I had gotten a great deal, 30% off each item, plus I was shopping at the 50% off stuff too. I love their design their qualities. I bought a simple 20 dollar purse from Ross – and it claimed to be 70 dollars somewhere else, I hated the material after a few days, stitches gotten loose, I couldn’t deal with it, I got rid of it and went back, I like to rotate purses, I like Kathy Van Zeeland, but it isn’t me, too flashy the style is pretty common, I don’t care for babyphat, its too flashy, there is so many other purses that is just cute, but I just cannot leave Coach. Nothing draws me more than Coach, I gotten other purse, I no longer use, I tried, but it wasn’t the same. The material, the leather everything – I couldn’t find any more better quality than Coach. I will keep my Coach for years, I will switch back and forth, I just discovered I can take them to the dry cleaners and have them clean my purse for $10.00 *score*

There is nothing wrong with other brands, it just doesn’t fit me. I have tried Guess, XOXO (I still have), Rossli (I loved her – but my straps would break within months and I had my Coach for much longer and it hasn’t), I never gotten purses as I gotten older from a store like Target or Walmart, I wanted better quality purses. The styles matches me best than any of the ones I have seen.

If I have never discovered Coach, I wouldn’t have thought about the money spending, I would still buy some other purses.

I would not pay full price, I mean 400 500 dollars?! I don’t have that kind of money, when I gotten the invitation for the up to 70% off, I had to look, and I saved a lil here and there, it took me a long time, and I spent *less* than 100 dollars. I cherish each one of the purses I have. there is one my FAVE, it’s a Hurley but I deff cannot use it because it does look childish L

The other type of purses I like, those leopard, tiger stripes, the loud colors – I LOVE them, but they don’t go well with me L

I hope it answers the questions why I like Coach so much, I only had coach for a lil over a year. J

I am so bad when I am sick...

Morning!

I AM SOOOOO BAD - first off i am at break typing this, so this might be pretty short.

Yesterday i felt SO sick and i kept vomiting, it has been going on for 2 weeks, but the vomit part was like a week, but it came to the point i couldnt bend without feeling bad, i still kinda do, but i am feeling much more energized. i went to the dr yesterday, took two pregnancy tests (i know a few ppl who are bummed that i am not), it was negative, so i had xrays, and blood work, and i have some blockage in my stomach, so i have meds i am taking, but it is making me pee like CRAZY, and my stomach hurts SOOO bad... so much pressure and pain... -.-

so i pretty much spent all day in bed after i came home from the doctors, bad sleepless night *ugh*

anyways - i gotten this SPECIAL Coach shopping online invitation, members only (you can sign up for one) since i gotten like, *thinks* 6 things from thier store in a year so yea, i gotten myself a smaller purse that goes across the chest if i wanted, *yay* it was 70% freaking percent OFF! So i ordered it online - i called through the VP last night and made SURE i can trust them because i am not in the mood to get another fake - but i did my investigation.

I know i know i was gonna not use the purse stuff - i tried for a few days, but i felt like i was being judged, i do keep my purse in the trunk most of the time. but when i am driving the Calibar, i am forced to bring it with me (hatch back) i do keep alot of crap in my purse.


i am not changing wallets, makeup wrist purse or coin purses

If i get rid of any of them - i would be selling them. i do rotate purses so, i just switched to my black one and cleaned my other one, which looks ALOT cleaner now.

Break is pretty  much almost up.


Have a good day - i have 5 mins time to read the other followers! 

Starting again

Morning

It is 445 AM right now – I gotten up at 4 am to make his lunch (I will make mine shortly – apple, grapes, pasta) and did a work out – not a long one today was the first work out I did in 2 weeks, I still feel like crap.

Something is wrong – I need to go to the dr soon, (I KNOW I am NOT preg just your FYI) I am getting sick in the stomach, Saturday night chris brought home a hamburger, and I puked, I gotten sick TWICE and I smelt that AWFUL smell of pickles it was just SO strong – something is interfering with my allergies cuz now its getting WROST – I need to see the specialist there is an appointment that needs to be made.

Yesterday – we gotten a KICK BUTT DEAL! For five chairs – for our deck, it was 500 something and we bought these comfy chairs for 129 bucks! *oh yeah* now we have to get a table, then our deck will be complete.

I was gonna make a girl’s game night but like I said with the hottub, kinda have to wait till this remodel is done, I know I am excited about this closet/craft room.

So chris can have his game room back. Last night I did some pampering I know I needed – I did stain feet/hands, now my feet feels good (mary kay), I took a nice shower, gotten new loofah, I did a good lotion all over that NEEDED to be done. I gave myself a pedi, and I painted my nails, the thing about the job I am working in now – not only it’s the office job my nails aren’t crappy all the time like it was at target, always breaking. Yay – that reminds me I need to take prenatial vitimins after this blog – oh my coffee!! I haven’t been to starbucks as much as I want to – but that’s okay – I get it does get expensive but once every week or two is good – today is one of them when I meet with someone tonight.

Btw I got my GOLD CARD FROM STARBUCKS *Finally* it looks really good with my name and when I  became a member

Time for breakfast – my menu: light yogart and apple. btw - i lost a inch of my waist - yay

New ideas....

Morning,

Someone gotten my MOJO back when she was here at my house on Friday when the boys took out the hot tub  - I did some beadings I couldn’t believe how much I did and how LONG it took.

I don’t want them for myself, there are some pretty cute things, I wanna support my hobby – but it isn’t cheap – I decided to take a bunch of other’s suggestions, sell… just to support it… if it goes well, MAYBE I will consider a business for it. I know it has happened before by others.

I am actually considering if I have so many within a month – maybe offer to SOMEONE to host a party (like a candle party/mary kay and etc) but I will have to figure out the hostess present.  I don’t want them to be UNafforable – once I get this going – I might consider to make REAL good stuff with JADE and etc – but maybe on ESTY they talk about? (but I doubt it) The one thing is the money i get will ONLY go to the beads. I shouldnt have to worry about paying anything else with them.

I got caught up in laundry yesterday *yay* I hate doing that chore – yesterday was a calm day for me – I didn’t have to deal with anything but me. I know I needed that – today the closet will be worked on (aka craft room) gonna be a while before I think about hosting anything at my house till it is done remodeling. I have big plans for that room – I will put in a small card table, a chair, my stuff chris will have a bigger closet when they pull the wall down from the guest room closet and the game room closet and make it bigger for him.

Today’s words:

Blessed above women shall Jael, the wife of Heber the Kenite, be…. Asked for water, and she gave him milk… she put her hand to the tent pin, and her right hand to the workmen’s hammer. And with the wooden hammer she smote Sisera, she smote his head – Judges 5:24-26

I am sure soon I will be writing about a certain verse I have a bunch of good ones I want to share!

Have a good weekend.

Now I know why I feel this way

Trust in, lean on, rely on, and have confidence in Him at all times you people; pour out your hearts before Him. God is a refuge for us (a fortress and a high tower). Selah – Psalm 62:8

Good morning – it has been a while since I opened the book of “The Confident Woman Devotional” book my friend has given to me for my birthday – it started to help me when I was feeling depressed, like I am right now.

I feel lonely than I normally do – I just realized something when my sister sent me a email about her blogs – I realized – “Where is God in all of this?” and I have forgetting to write/pray to him, I have not been reading the Bible – Bible study has been put on hold until September. No wonder why I have been feeling moody, sad, hurt all this week. It pretty much started up again when we were heading home from our trip. That day was just a disaster, so many things kept hitting me so fast in a short amount of time, it was like so many different things. It almost made no sense, I went home having a breakdown, I cried till I thought I couldn’t cry anymore. I didn’t speak to anyone all this week, except yesterday I started to talk to someone. Just general talk.

Today I will need to do a lot of laundry due to the fact we had to bug bomb the house while we were gone, catching up on a lot of wash – my house is much cleaner, it needs to stay that way (the cat food, ants found the cat food, just in the spot -.-) that didn’t help the stress either.

Someone else made me realize – all these things I do – I am just pushing people away. Why? I wish I knew. All this week I had this “I don’t know what is wrong with me” and now I know why. I get more depressed when I don’t have Him around me, I know hes there, but what am I doing? I am not talking to Him, I am not praying or writing to Him. I know I am shutting Him out – I don’t want that – I will take the time to write to him today after my husband leaves to work, then I will write to him, start reading that book the daily book – I need to feel better about myself, I need to love myself, not hide myself. I know I am not easy liked – but it doesn’t matter I am lucky to have what I have. a lot of people don’t even have that.

I started to read Harry Potter book 4 last week – lemme tell you – it is NOT easy to get into it, I am BORED out of my mind…. But no I need to force myself and see what is all the fuss this is all about. Since my social life is pretty much a dud right now, seeing a friend once a month or even less I need to do more things on my hands, I know I am busy already – yesterday a bunch of boys came over to remove that hot tub (FINALLY after a freaking year) there is gonna be some remodeling in this house – gonna have two walk in closet one for me and one for Chris – mine will be the “craft room” well kinda, but my stuff will be in that room, and they are gonna remove the wall from the first bedroom and the guest bedroom closet and make it bigger for him and his games, and then put in another bathroom in the bigger bedroom/laundry room *just stink, toilet and mirror* so then we will have two and I’ll be happy – I hate having ONE bathroom. We plan on buying THIS house once we can afford it. I lived here as a child, and I am back in it, I have so many plans for this house. Now if I can get us to downsize a lot – have fewer stuff esp the ones we don’t use.

Another goal – I want to start updating my blogger more often. I think people should have updates about me – although which is sad the email I use for this account I don’t check often. (thedreamer1985 – if you need my new updated email address lemme know – I made a new one for professional reasons/less spam)

Have a great day.

Amber

An update of my life

Morning!

WOW it has been so long since I updated – shame on me – I LOVE blogging – sadly I actually havent had time to do like… anything.

I am not reading as much as I want except for the book club books – and I have been working on ONE book for the past two months -.-

I know I am spending a lot less time on FACEBOOK – but that’s a good thing – still trying to cut down.

Lets see what I can update:

1. I have started a new job (and I love it – not so horrible like Target or discrimating) but I still keep in touch with those from target that I still try to interact with the good ones. And I passed my 90 days – I am getting AWSOME benfits - that includes paid vaction times too. :-D
2. we got ourselves a new car – my kia was really dying on me, it decided to go backwards instead of forward, once at a light when I was trying to go forward (in front of a cop as well) it went reverse, and it has happened on other occasions I had to trick my transmission to get it in gear. We gotten ourselves a new dodge advenger express midgrade 2011 car and I am LOVING it. I know I cried when I gotten rid of my KIA – it was really heart breaking for me, I had it for so long, my first car that I BOUGHT, and so many memories.
3. my social life has been a dud – I have been hanging out with a few people but I have been so busy with work and life itself I haven’t had much time for anything. But I am grateful I will be seeing Miss. Sarah today – I haven’t seen her since birthday time.
4. I have been working out much more – I was brave enough to post up comparrassion on my weight loss – no one notices (or says anything but that’s okay) about the differences IRL – but I think with the pictures a lot can notice the differences. My weight has been a struggle for so long – sadly today I did not do a work out – I am just so burnt out this week – I have been making sure I am not eating the bad food.
5. I have given up junk food for 6 months – three down 3 more to go – I am actually considering to give it up even longer.
6. I miss my old style – the way I used to be, the way I used to wear my clothes, my hair, not caring about what people think of me – I was a tom boy – what happened? I was forced by society to be a girlie girl – but on weekends – I am carefree I wear what I please – I put on my baseball cap a couple of weeks ago for the first time in years, and I LOVED it.
7. Bible study got started back in May – I was so grateful – the people who are in the group I haven’t seen or heard from in years – which is great because now I can re build a friendship with them! J
8. Buffy is now 17 months old – she has been so good – she is a very good puppy, most of the time she is in control but there are a few occasions when she is extremely excited – but we keep in mind shes “8” years old in human years.
9. our cats – we gotten a doggy door from my parents since they gotten an upgrade – and they have been using it, so basically I haven’t cleaned the cat box in months –because they live outside, they love it outside. They are both microchiped (all of them are)
10. Dakota joins me and Buffy for walks when we go, she is an indeed a strange cat.
11. I picked up crocheting – but I haven’t touched the yarn or my God Sister’s Christmas present in a few weeks -.- I need to get it done before Christmas.
12. I have not beaded for a few months either.
13. we met a couple well – I met a couple and chris works with the husband during his Christmas party – we have been double dating  and I love it. we had our very first couple get away.
14. this weekend is our 2^nd wedding anniversary and we are going to silverwood – I never been there, or heard of it. I am pretty excited – and we are going with the family: Elizabeth, Ryan, Zach, Allie – it will be a lot of fun.
15. we will go to ocean shores in September, I am pretty excited, it has been too long – with the truck up and running, we will be bringing it for the boys to use (the boat).
16. last weekend I did some volunteer work – caring for kids – it still amazes me how people can be so ungrateful – this year was worst than last year – explaining to all these people “the limit is ONE per family – this is all we have we have a lot of people behind you” it really sickens me when people are that selfish, people worked hard getting the free stuff to give away – or paid a lot of money for donations. But I still felt really good at the end because those who really did needed it – gotten helped.

I think that pretty much sums it up – today I have a customer service classes to attend to. I am pretty excited about that – and it will build my job position/customer service stronger.

Have a great week!

God Bless

Amber

As i put my hair up in the messy bun for the last time

Good morning,

I have ten minutes before I have to head off to work, so I thought I would share my story…

Yes it is true, I donated my hair! It is going straight to the children, which is what I wanted… I felt so good, I was also very nervous because I haven’t had this short hair since I was a child.

I am looking much more nicer and office like which is perfect. I am loving my new hair, I am loving my new make over, I am done now :-) I have my nails, hair, clothes what do I need? Other than a new car which isn’t happening till next year – I already picked out what I want.

I feel so good about what I did, I know I did something to make a sick child very happy. I have beautiful healthy hair – it may be brown, but I get so many compliments on how soft, how beautiful it is… I need to share it… I will be doing it again next year.

The book club was fun – it is my turn to host, and I have no idea what food to serve or drinks.

A couple friend came over yesterday – we had so much fun the guys did their thing and us girls were beading she is so good – she taught me how to metal bead, and I made my first stretchy bracelet too – I understand now why people make to keep because I have seen the work she does it is unbelievable – I am loving our time together, and she is going to teach me much more! I wont be stocking up on presents – I will be making things FOR that person… it will take up a lot of my time, but I think if I can just give up some things I can do it – deff on Sundays. Next weekend, I will have Sunday free – it will stay free for me (unless it is Easter?) if its Easter, I cannot wait to color eggs, and have that traditional Easter breakfast… yum!

I am so blessed, I have a wonderful WONDERFUL job, I am doing so good. I feel good about myself, and working in an environment of disable people not going “well I am…… so I can work” you wouldn’t believe who is there! :-)  (it does annoy me when ppl use their small DA to make an excuse NOT to work --- but some bigger cases of disability works there… it proves it…) and better yet my job also gives to the community, I love the fact I am growing to able to give much more unlike retail its profit they don’t do enough community but GW is 24/7 plus I can still volunteer, and my hair ---- sighs… can my life be anymore amazing?! (I know I am bragging but it makes me SOOOOO happy)

Gotta go

God Bless

Amber

My new job - updates

Good Morning,

It is 5:53 am – I am showered but I need to put my make up on and do my hair – fix my coffee for tmw…

I am just LOVING my job, I never felt this happy when it came to work – not even Target not even at the beginning of Target. I cant describe how happy I am. Caring for Kids kept me happy but I don’t do it often enough, and with this job, I just LOVE it and I also help back to the community!

Yesterday my final training came – when it was supposed to be next week, but I was putting things in the shopgoodwill.com, and describing it, well yesterday they gave me a camera! I was just having TOOOOO much fun – but how can I not have fun – camera + me = fun time! I get to model the items, take pictures, I pick from white or black background, it is just so much fun.

Time goes too fast over there – except the fact I had a headache growing yesterday about an hour and half before my shift ends :( I think the fact the I wasn’t used to doing a lot of reading and sitting on the cpu for a long period of time – I KNOW I will get used to it. but I kept almost missing my breaks! -.- that’s how fast time goes… this is a sure thing – I know I will go through the 90 day probation so quickly. I am going into work with a smile on my face – I am just too excited to go!

Office work is the way I wanted to go – I got it, and I am much happier.

The best part – I can get along with every one – people are so kind and patient over there, they aren’t so demanding like Target after having expecations, they remind me “over the time… you will…” but Target is like “well you need to like now….” I am so fast I have been surprising people – but the one thing I can thank Target is that they helped me to speed up things – I was one of the fastest people at Target regardless of what the new supervisor thinks. I have some people there that backs it up, and misses me. I do miss some of the people.

I got my bridesmaid dress – now I just need to pay for alternations…. Ick! But at the end its worth it – but something I am thinking – what will I re wear that dress? When she told me something about wearing it again – it is a cute dress – I never re wore my prom dress, or my winterformal dress, or any of my home coming dress again. And yet I don’t have the heart to get rid of them -.- I know they were expensive! Lol.

Yesterday one of my cats – sebastain gotten out with chris yesterday at like 5 am – and he has been sneaking out so fast so quick we don’t even notice, he is not a outdoor cat but he is trying to be, he is not mirco chipped, and it worries me, but we will get him MC soon, because we really cant stop him from leaving, but i freaked out so much last night when he didn’t come home, in the rain or anything, I cried as I lost him, at 4 am this morning I gotten up paced around the house checking doors and etc, he wasn’t there, then 430 he was… and I was soooo happy and I grabbed and hugged him. Because last night I felt incrediably guilty. He was gone for almost 24 hours but I guess 23 hours.  I am just glad God kept him safe and brought him back to us. I know he will come back now.

Gotta go!

God Bless

Amber

Today is the big day

Good Morning.

Today is the 4^th of april – because the internet is down, this might be posted after the 4^th.

I am in the middle of getting ready, and I have an hour, I am already showered and I made breakfast, did my dishes.

I am so excited, I know today is the big day for me, and it is a big deal because it is a whole new career for me, something I have been wanting to do for years. At first I wanted to be an actor, but I am not quite good enough, so this is my back up plan. I am just still so glad to be free from Target I will miss some of the people there.

This weekend was wonderful, Buffy had a major diahrea accident while we were gone for a few hours in the kennel at my grandma’s house. We assume it is from the salt water and some of the food she might have ate. It was awful I hated that smell, that was one of the most nastiest thing we had to clean.

Yesterday we stopped at my sister in law’s house she had a party for my other sister in law and my father in law’s whos birthday is today, it was a theme party and we didn’t have time to find a 50s style clothes… oops. It was nice to see everyone it was fun and enjoyable, buffy was very good, and I know she was tired too. I was worried if she wouldn’t like to be outside. While everyone had cake except for me and chris – since we gave up sweets for lent, it made me think for a few minutes how Jesus felt. It was one of those good moments, I needed those minutes the entire weekend we were surrounded by sweets. I ended up smiling at random people who were eating cake lol.

Today is Buffy’s birthday also – she is now one years old.

I am gonna get off drink the rest of my coffee, and write to God. I know I have a lot of things to thank him for and prayers.

God Bless

Amber

excited - busy days ahead of me

Good Morning Everyone,

Well, for starters, I need to practice my typing with the new nails I gotten yesterday they might be a tad bit too long but they are pretty short. I know I am happy with them because it looks much better than it was when I had my real nails.

Today is going to be a super busy day, I need to vacuum all the rooms, and clean the kitchen floor, do laundry so we wouldn’t have any really but our night clothes and the clothes we wear today.

I am pretty excited I am going to ocean shores this weekend, well tomorrow, and I get to see my family that I don’t see very often. It will be a lot of fun, I am perfectly happy staying in and play cards with my grandma and my aunt, and my little cousins. I don’t need to spend a lot of money, we will try to go like 4 5 times in a year, but sadly this is the first time this year we go up there, we went up there for new years but we also left, so hopefully we will go three more times I can only hope, the summer is coming up. we already planned some travels, for my birthday week, we will go down to Oregon I think, up in the mountains, it will be very romantic and we will be taking our dog. But nothing has been set in stone yet, and in June, well, we haven’t decided but it sounds like we will be going down a lil south because my husband’s favorite place to fish is there. And our two year wedding anniversary is this summer, we haven’t decided what we are going to do, hopefully next year I will go to CALI, and FLDA. I would love to go to Cali, I do miss Mario so very much.

For those who doesn’t know who he is, he is one of my best friends, and when he moved (when I started dating chris at the time) it felt like part of me gotten torn apart. But I knew he would be happier there, which he is. I love him so much, I wish he was still here for the times I am going through right now, I could really use him. Not to mention he can help me understand what goes in a guy’s mind. Basically he is my brother, we grew up together, we known each other since preschool, we been through so much in our life it is just unbearable to imagine if I ever lost Whitney and Mario… they are a part of me. Honesty, I am not sure how many people has what we have.

It is wonderful to watch some of our friends grow, Whitney is the next one to get married (June 26….).

I am very anxious about the next 10 days… or so…

TODAY  - housework/laundry and pack – plus I will have both dogs…

Friday – we leave, plus run a few errands like oil change, poop patrol at dads, and head down to ocean shores

Sat to sun – ocean shores

Sunday – head home –my sister in law and father in law’s birthday party so we will be stopping there

Monday – the new job starts…. Will be a very very busy day for me

Tuesday – work plus bridesmaid fitting at like 530

Thrusday – work and dr appointment

Friday – I am considering to get my eye brows waxed after work but if not ill do it Saturday and I believe I will attend to a poker night – which is so great I will have weekends OFFFFFFFFFFF no more unpredictable hours…

Saturday – hair donation time – will have a whole new look – no one has seen my picture, it will be a total surprise. It wont be boring straight down I will tell you that much but if it charges, I will b happy to because I will not go to super cuts and get a new style I will need to go to a place that has experiences on hair cuts (I know its shallow but its hard to trust chain hair places to goof up) and our book club! <3

Sunday – day off – church

This is so exciting… I will try to avoid plans during the week days because I wont have a lot of time to cook, do housework like I used to – or bead – which I have lost motivation, but last night my husband took me out for dinner last night to celebrate the new job, he told me to do it, and forget those who disencourages me. But for those who did – do I still make something for them? I don’t think I will make for those who didn’t appreciate it… I know it is stupid but it kinda hurt when they didn’t appreciate…

I do have potentials. Yesterday I gave a ankle bracelet to a friend – she liked it and put it on after she had her pedi and it fits. :-) it does make me happy to see others who are happy.

Gotta get ready for the day – or not – I have a lot of housework to do, if I finish it I need to be able to read my book club book – I am over half way through it… but I need to:

Vacuum

Clean the kitchen floor

Laundry

Clean the bathroom

Defiantly do something about the end table that is piled up with mail crap.

Okay I guess I don’t have THAT much, but I need this place looking great…. I will try to do something around the house everyday even if it is 10 minutes a day.

God Bless

Amber

Ps - Oh goodnness - i forgotten the MOST important thing i am gonna do  - take a nice HOTTTTTT bath tonight... with candles, i am so much in need to relaaaaxxxxx

switching the new life...

Hey,

I needed a reality check – my husband used some verses from a prayer which reminded me, “forgive those who trespass against us” I say it every week in church. I knew it was another message from God. So I started to read the Bible more the other day, when I start to feel distance, I go right back to the Bible. I was thinking in my head – which I knew Jesus and God heard me, how I think they are amazing. They helped me through the bad patches of my life.

After this week, I am going to soar. I am a bird stuck in a nest, not quite ready to fly but someone is going to push me out, and I need to fly. My dream was to work in the office, I had a taste, and I fell in love with it and I gotten the job. Now it is my turn to fly. After my experiences with retail, I don’t think I would ever work for retail again, not that I want to. I know I deserve better. Perfect environment – no phones involved. It will get me far in my life, I am about to write a new chapter of my life.

I am having a slow makeover – I already gotten new glasses, this week nails, I gotten some new clothes, but it wont stop me from shopping more, I want a lot of clothes so I can have 3 weeks worth of clothes (I want to be creative). And I am really excited and nervous about my hair cut, I had long hair for a long time.

I mentioned I was scared and nervous to start my new career. It is a scary thought, it is a scary thing to go through. Because its so new, and you are gonna explore, but I will have people there to make me feel right at home.

After the whole fake coach purse – I saved up some money, and I bought:

Purse

Coin purse (is a keychain too)

Wallet

Make up bag (wrist purse)

All coach – and it made me happy, I had a major savings. I have been wanting a new coach for so long, before my black one, I have been wanting a coach for such a long time. I want to have at lest 4 coach purses – so I can have a variety. I mean, if one day I feel like I want this one, I will switch. The thing about coach purses, I always heard how great they are – and someone had her one purse for 15 years. And I have spent like 30 40 bucks on my purses and they break after a few months. I know coach is expensive, but the coach outlit is my new best friend! Along with the body works lol! I stocked up on body wash, so I wont need body wash in a few months or longer, since my job wont allow me to have scented perfume/body spray so my sprays will last a long time because it will be for the weekend – and that is okay.

I am extremely excited Bible study is coming up soon – I think it will be Tuesday nights but I don’t know yet… but I know I am jumping with joy for this, I have waited a long time, and I will meet new catholic friends!!! I am looking forward to making new friends with my church.

This lent has been so smooth, I am surprised I haven’t been cranky when it comes to not having dessert food that we gave up for Lent.

Yesterday I had my rings cleaned (wedding rings) which its nice and sparkly. I was drooling over this necklace I really wanted – its emerald. But I know I have enough jewelries as it is.

I gotta take off – I am taking my dad to his appointment. Headphones (check) phone (check) and book (check)

God Bless

Amber

Updates on me...

Hey,

I know another blog today – I started to think – I haven’t really been updating about me…

Well we know I am no longer working at Target, I am going to Esales, which is a whole lot more money than Target was providing.

Things here has been very stressful, I am not sure where to begin, I completely lost it last night. I was so out of it I didn’t even want to get out of bed this morning, but the only thing I had to do to get out of bed knowing I had to get up and go to my dad’s house for Poop patrol.

I am becoming more independent, for some reason I have been busy with life it self, and I gotten more beads, but I am experiencing lack of motivation. My stuff is just sitting there being unused – I think I am going to end this hobby. I was going to make a whole bunch to give out or sell for lil bucks, but, I just don’t know.  I know I just cannot wait to go to work, start my new job. My weekends are getting pretty busy quick, I want to start making plans for MY friends, almost all of my weekends in June is booked up – first weekend I will go out of town, second weekend baby shower, but I will try not to make any plans for that Sunday, because knowing me, I want a BREAK I will be working 40 hours a week, I need a break I don’t need to be on the go like I have been lately, the weekend after that I am keeping that clear ON PURPOSE, any plans or invitation I will immediately decline (so please don’t ask) until I know if my best friend is having a bach party, there is NO way I am going to miss that party EVER. Then the weekend after that I have the wedding I am one of the bridesmaid. Then the last weekend, I am free… *whew* I might just keep that purposely cleared for ME. I wont have much time to do housework… nothing in July YET maybe the first weekend…

April – well I am busy the first two weekends but I think the third Saturday I am going to take Buffy for her bath, she NEEDS it ugh smelling like a dog already. I would like to make a plan with a friend of mine to visit Pike’s market – and visit the FIRST starbucks… :-D I do miss having starbucks.

May – all weekend is booked up on Saturdays – I try to keep the Sundays open but hey other things happens.

I haven’t been doing any reading, it is so bad that for my book club “eat pray love” I forgotten what have happened… I might have to re read the whole book, and I am almost done, for some reason I just start to think of other things… *sighs* and I haven’t been using the kindle – I just don’t have time to read – if I do I try to read the Bible. I feel icky because I haven’t read the Bible in a while, I was just reading the Bible and I had the urge to come on here.

I would love to meet new people – I would really love that – but the question is… where do I start? :-/ my friends are pretty far from me – and I would like to meet some local people.

I love hosting events but I haven’t, I was going to have a candle party, but I canceled due to some past tense drama. But I ended up having other things like a major girl pamper time.

I know I might have mentioned this – monthly I will be getting a pedi, weds I will get my nails done, which I cannot wait. I am really gonna start looking more professional than a icky bum you see. I cannot wait to donate my hair – my hair cut is going to be extremely different and cute. I am pretty nervous about it. It will happen the same day of the Book club and it will totally WOW the girls – I am thinking of getting my eye brows waxed the day before too… I wont have time to do it that day. (yeah my eye brows are starting to be icky well they are I might just do it before hand, yep call it a SLOWWWW make over)

I am so excited for my new job, it will be one step closer to my successful future, this is a perfect office environment, I am not sitting at a desk ALL day, there will be SOME physical activity, I get to see things and research things. All I can hope is I can work hard move up to the next level, this job will take me somewhere… somewhere far and successful. I see myself with this company for a very very long time, one of the best thing is this is a non profit company, and I will be working to give back to the community, which will give me so much more pride and I would be very proud… I am very excited.

I really cannot think of anything else…

Take care! God Bless,

Amber