As i put my hair up in the messy bun for the last time

Good morning,

I have ten minutes before I have to head off to work, so I thought I would share my story…

Yes it is true, I donated my hair! It is going straight to the children, which is what I wanted… I felt so good, I was also very nervous because I haven’t had this short hair since I was a child.

I am looking much more nicer and office like which is perfect. I am loving my new hair, I am loving my new make over, I am done now :-) I have my nails, hair, clothes what do I need? Other than a new car which isn’t happening till next year – I already picked out what I want.

I feel so good about what I did, I know I did something to make a sick child very happy. I have beautiful healthy hair – it may be brown, but I get so many compliments on how soft, how beautiful it is… I need to share it… I will be doing it again next year.

The book club was fun – it is my turn to host, and I have no idea what food to serve or drinks.

A couple friend came over yesterday – we had so much fun the guys did their thing and us girls were beading she is so good – she taught me how to metal bead, and I made my first stretchy bracelet too – I understand now why people make to keep because I have seen the work she does it is unbelievable – I am loving our time together, and she is going to teach me much more! I wont be stocking up on presents – I will be making things FOR that person… it will take up a lot of my time, but I think if I can just give up some things I can do it – deff on Sundays. Next weekend, I will have Sunday free – it will stay free for me (unless it is Easter?) if its Easter, I cannot wait to color eggs, and have that traditional Easter breakfast… yum!

I am so blessed, I have a wonderful WONDERFUL job, I am doing so good. I feel good about myself, and working in an environment of disable people not going “well I am…… so I can work” you wouldn’t believe who is there! :-)  (it does annoy me when ppl use their small DA to make an excuse NOT to work --- but some bigger cases of disability works there… it proves it…) and better yet my job also gives to the community, I love the fact I am growing to able to give much more unlike retail its profit they don’t do enough community but GW is 24/7 plus I can still volunteer, and my hair ---- sighs… can my life be anymore amazing?! (I know I am bragging but it makes me SOOOOO happy)

Gotta go

God Bless

Amber

My new job - updates

Good Morning,

It is 5:53 am – I am showered but I need to put my make up on and do my hair – fix my coffee for tmw…

I am just LOVING my job, I never felt this happy when it came to work – not even Target not even at the beginning of Target. I cant describe how happy I am. Caring for Kids kept me happy but I don’t do it often enough, and with this job, I just LOVE it and I also help back to the community!

Yesterday my final training came – when it was supposed to be next week, but I was putting things in the shopgoodwill.com, and describing it, well yesterday they gave me a camera! I was just having TOOOOO much fun – but how can I not have fun – camera + me = fun time! I get to model the items, take pictures, I pick from white or black background, it is just so much fun.

Time goes too fast over there – except the fact I had a headache growing yesterday about an hour and half before my shift ends :( I think the fact the I wasn’t used to doing a lot of reading and sitting on the cpu for a long period of time – I KNOW I will get used to it. but I kept almost missing my breaks! -.- that’s how fast time goes… this is a sure thing – I know I will go through the 90 day probation so quickly. I am going into work with a smile on my face – I am just too excited to go!

Office work is the way I wanted to go – I got it, and I am much happier.

The best part – I can get along with every one – people are so kind and patient over there, they aren’t so demanding like Target after having expecations, they remind me “over the time… you will…” but Target is like “well you need to like now….” I am so fast I have been surprising people – but the one thing I can thank Target is that they helped me to speed up things – I was one of the fastest people at Target regardless of what the new supervisor thinks. I have some people there that backs it up, and misses me. I do miss some of the people.

I got my bridesmaid dress – now I just need to pay for alternations…. Ick! But at the end its worth it – but something I am thinking – what will I re wear that dress? When she told me something about wearing it again – it is a cute dress – I never re wore my prom dress, or my winterformal dress, or any of my home coming dress again. And yet I don’t have the heart to get rid of them -.- I know they were expensive! Lol.

Yesterday one of my cats – sebastain gotten out with chris yesterday at like 5 am – and he has been sneaking out so fast so quick we don’t even notice, he is not a outdoor cat but he is trying to be, he is not mirco chipped, and it worries me, but we will get him MC soon, because we really cant stop him from leaving, but i freaked out so much last night when he didn’t come home, in the rain or anything, I cried as I lost him, at 4 am this morning I gotten up paced around the house checking doors and etc, he wasn’t there, then 430 he was… and I was soooo happy and I grabbed and hugged him. Because last night I felt incrediably guilty. He was gone for almost 24 hours but I guess 23 hours.  I am just glad God kept him safe and brought him back to us. I know he will come back now.

Gotta go!

God Bless

Amber

Today is the big day

Good Morning.

Today is the 4^th of april – because the internet is down, this might be posted after the 4^th.

I am in the middle of getting ready, and I have an hour, I am already showered and I made breakfast, did my dishes.

I am so excited, I know today is the big day for me, and it is a big deal because it is a whole new career for me, something I have been wanting to do for years. At first I wanted to be an actor, but I am not quite good enough, so this is my back up plan. I am just still so glad to be free from Target I will miss some of the people there.

This weekend was wonderful, Buffy had a major diahrea accident while we were gone for a few hours in the kennel at my grandma’s house. We assume it is from the salt water and some of the food she might have ate. It was awful I hated that smell, that was one of the most nastiest thing we had to clean.

Yesterday we stopped at my sister in law’s house she had a party for my other sister in law and my father in law’s whos birthday is today, it was a theme party and we didn’t have time to find a 50s style clothes… oops. It was nice to see everyone it was fun and enjoyable, buffy was very good, and I know she was tired too. I was worried if she wouldn’t like to be outside. While everyone had cake except for me and chris – since we gave up sweets for lent, it made me think for a few minutes how Jesus felt. It was one of those good moments, I needed those minutes the entire weekend we were surrounded by sweets. I ended up smiling at random people who were eating cake lol.

Today is Buffy’s birthday also – she is now one years old.

I am gonna get off drink the rest of my coffee, and write to God. I know I have a lot of things to thank him for and prayers.

God Bless

Amber

excited - busy days ahead of me

Good Morning Everyone,

Well, for starters, I need to practice my typing with the new nails I gotten yesterday they might be a tad bit too long but they are pretty short. I know I am happy with them because it looks much better than it was when I had my real nails.

Today is going to be a super busy day, I need to vacuum all the rooms, and clean the kitchen floor, do laundry so we wouldn’t have any really but our night clothes and the clothes we wear today.

I am pretty excited I am going to ocean shores this weekend, well tomorrow, and I get to see my family that I don’t see very often. It will be a lot of fun, I am perfectly happy staying in and play cards with my grandma and my aunt, and my little cousins. I don’t need to spend a lot of money, we will try to go like 4 5 times in a year, but sadly this is the first time this year we go up there, we went up there for new years but we also left, so hopefully we will go three more times I can only hope, the summer is coming up. we already planned some travels, for my birthday week, we will go down to Oregon I think, up in the mountains, it will be very romantic and we will be taking our dog. But nothing has been set in stone yet, and in June, well, we haven’t decided but it sounds like we will be going down a lil south because my husband’s favorite place to fish is there. And our two year wedding anniversary is this summer, we haven’t decided what we are going to do, hopefully next year I will go to CALI, and FLDA. I would love to go to Cali, I do miss Mario so very much.

For those who doesn’t know who he is, he is one of my best friends, and when he moved (when I started dating chris at the time) it felt like part of me gotten torn apart. But I knew he would be happier there, which he is. I love him so much, I wish he was still here for the times I am going through right now, I could really use him. Not to mention he can help me understand what goes in a guy’s mind. Basically he is my brother, we grew up together, we known each other since preschool, we been through so much in our life it is just unbearable to imagine if I ever lost Whitney and Mario… they are a part of me. Honesty, I am not sure how many people has what we have.

It is wonderful to watch some of our friends grow, Whitney is the next one to get married (June 26….).

I am very anxious about the next 10 days… or so…

TODAY  - housework/laundry and pack – plus I will have both dogs…

Friday – we leave, plus run a few errands like oil change, poop patrol at dads, and head down to ocean shores

Sat to sun – ocean shores

Sunday – head home –my sister in law and father in law’s birthday party so we will be stopping there

Monday – the new job starts…. Will be a very very busy day for me

Tuesday – work plus bridesmaid fitting at like 530

Thrusday – work and dr appointment

Friday – I am considering to get my eye brows waxed after work but if not ill do it Saturday and I believe I will attend to a poker night – which is so great I will have weekends OFFFFFFFFFFF no more unpredictable hours…

Saturday – hair donation time – will have a whole new look – no one has seen my picture, it will be a total surprise. It wont be boring straight down I will tell you that much but if it charges, I will b happy to because I will not go to super cuts and get a new style I will need to go to a place that has experiences on hair cuts (I know its shallow but its hard to trust chain hair places to goof up) and our book club! <3

Sunday – day off – church

This is so exciting… I will try to avoid plans during the week days because I wont have a lot of time to cook, do housework like I used to – or bead – which I have lost motivation, but last night my husband took me out for dinner last night to celebrate the new job, he told me to do it, and forget those who disencourages me. But for those who did – do I still make something for them? I don’t think I will make for those who didn’t appreciate it… I know it is stupid but it kinda hurt when they didn’t appreciate…

I do have potentials. Yesterday I gave a ankle bracelet to a friend – she liked it and put it on after she had her pedi and it fits. :-) it does make me happy to see others who are happy.

Gotta get ready for the day – or not – I have a lot of housework to do, if I finish it I need to be able to read my book club book – I am over half way through it… but I need to:

Vacuum

Clean the kitchen floor

Laundry

Clean the bathroom

Defiantly do something about the end table that is piled up with mail crap.

Okay I guess I don’t have THAT much, but I need this place looking great…. I will try to do something around the house everyday even if it is 10 minutes a day.

God Bless

Amber

Ps - Oh goodnness - i forgotten the MOST important thing i am gonna do  - take a nice HOTTTTTT bath tonight... with candles, i am so much in need to relaaaaxxxxx

switching the new life...

Hey,

I needed a reality check – my husband used some verses from a prayer which reminded me, “forgive those who trespass against us” I say it every week in church. I knew it was another message from God. So I started to read the Bible more the other day, when I start to feel distance, I go right back to the Bible. I was thinking in my head – which I knew Jesus and God heard me, how I think they are amazing. They helped me through the bad patches of my life.

After this week, I am going to soar. I am a bird stuck in a nest, not quite ready to fly but someone is going to push me out, and I need to fly. My dream was to work in the office, I had a taste, and I fell in love with it and I gotten the job. Now it is my turn to fly. After my experiences with retail, I don’t think I would ever work for retail again, not that I want to. I know I deserve better. Perfect environment – no phones involved. It will get me far in my life, I am about to write a new chapter of my life.

I am having a slow makeover – I already gotten new glasses, this week nails, I gotten some new clothes, but it wont stop me from shopping more, I want a lot of clothes so I can have 3 weeks worth of clothes (I want to be creative). And I am really excited and nervous about my hair cut, I had long hair for a long time.

I mentioned I was scared and nervous to start my new career. It is a scary thought, it is a scary thing to go through. Because its so new, and you are gonna explore, but I will have people there to make me feel right at home.

After the whole fake coach purse – I saved up some money, and I bought:

Purse

Coin purse (is a keychain too)

Wallet

Make up bag (wrist purse)

All coach – and it made me happy, I had a major savings. I have been wanting a new coach for so long, before my black one, I have been wanting a coach for such a long time. I want to have at lest 4 coach purses – so I can have a variety. I mean, if one day I feel like I want this one, I will switch. The thing about coach purses, I always heard how great they are – and someone had her one purse for 15 years. And I have spent like 30 40 bucks on my purses and they break after a few months. I know coach is expensive, but the coach outlit is my new best friend! Along with the body works lol! I stocked up on body wash, so I wont need body wash in a few months or longer, since my job wont allow me to have scented perfume/body spray so my sprays will last a long time because it will be for the weekend – and that is okay.

I am extremely excited Bible study is coming up soon – I think it will be Tuesday nights but I don’t know yet… but I know I am jumping with joy for this, I have waited a long time, and I will meet new catholic friends!!! I am looking forward to making new friends with my church.

This lent has been so smooth, I am surprised I haven’t been cranky when it comes to not having dessert food that we gave up for Lent.

Yesterday I had my rings cleaned (wedding rings) which its nice and sparkly. I was drooling over this necklace I really wanted – its emerald. But I know I have enough jewelries as it is.

I gotta take off – I am taking my dad to his appointment. Headphones (check) phone (check) and book (check)

God Bless

Amber

Updates on me...

Hey,

I know another blog today – I started to think – I haven’t really been updating about me…

Well we know I am no longer working at Target, I am going to Esales, which is a whole lot more money than Target was providing.

Things here has been very stressful, I am not sure where to begin, I completely lost it last night. I was so out of it I didn’t even want to get out of bed this morning, but the only thing I had to do to get out of bed knowing I had to get up and go to my dad’s house for Poop patrol.

I am becoming more independent, for some reason I have been busy with life it self, and I gotten more beads, but I am experiencing lack of motivation. My stuff is just sitting there being unused – I think I am going to end this hobby. I was going to make a whole bunch to give out or sell for lil bucks, but, I just don’t know.  I know I just cannot wait to go to work, start my new job. My weekends are getting pretty busy quick, I want to start making plans for MY friends, almost all of my weekends in June is booked up – first weekend I will go out of town, second weekend baby shower, but I will try not to make any plans for that Sunday, because knowing me, I want a BREAK I will be working 40 hours a week, I need a break I don’t need to be on the go like I have been lately, the weekend after that I am keeping that clear ON PURPOSE, any plans or invitation I will immediately decline (so please don’t ask) until I know if my best friend is having a bach party, there is NO way I am going to miss that party EVER. Then the weekend after that I have the wedding I am one of the bridesmaid. Then the last weekend, I am free… *whew* I might just keep that purposely cleared for ME. I wont have much time to do housework… nothing in July YET maybe the first weekend…

April – well I am busy the first two weekends but I think the third Saturday I am going to take Buffy for her bath, she NEEDS it ugh smelling like a dog already. I would like to make a plan with a friend of mine to visit Pike’s market – and visit the FIRST starbucks… :-D I do miss having starbucks.

May – all weekend is booked up on Saturdays – I try to keep the Sundays open but hey other things happens.

I haven’t been doing any reading, it is so bad that for my book club “eat pray love” I forgotten what have happened… I might have to re read the whole book, and I am almost done, for some reason I just start to think of other things… *sighs* and I haven’t been using the kindle – I just don’t have time to read – if I do I try to read the Bible. I feel icky because I haven’t read the Bible in a while, I was just reading the Bible and I had the urge to come on here.

I would love to meet new people – I would really love that – but the question is… where do I start? :-/ my friends are pretty far from me – and I would like to meet some local people.

I love hosting events but I haven’t, I was going to have a candle party, but I canceled due to some past tense drama. But I ended up having other things like a major girl pamper time.

I know I might have mentioned this – monthly I will be getting a pedi, weds I will get my nails done, which I cannot wait. I am really gonna start looking more professional than a icky bum you see. I cannot wait to donate my hair – my hair cut is going to be extremely different and cute. I am pretty nervous about it. It will happen the same day of the Book club and it will totally WOW the girls – I am thinking of getting my eye brows waxed the day before too… I wont have time to do it that day. (yeah my eye brows are starting to be icky well they are I might just do it before hand, yep call it a SLOWWWW make over)

I am so excited for my new job, it will be one step closer to my successful future, this is a perfect office environment, I am not sitting at a desk ALL day, there will be SOME physical activity, I get to see things and research things. All I can hope is I can work hard move up to the next level, this job will take me somewhere… somewhere far and successful. I see myself with this company for a very very long time, one of the best thing is this is a non profit company, and I will be working to give back to the community, which will give me so much more pride and I would be very proud… I am very excited.

I really cannot think of anything else…

Take care! God Bless,

Amber

Changes to make...

Morning,

Yesterday was just so unbelieveably bad…

I walked out on target, the place is just so dark it affected my personality yesterday, it was so bad, I wrote something so nasty till someone called on it on facebook, I wrote a better one, no names no name calling no anger.

I read some of the bible, thanks to God he has helped me through yesterday I was completely alone going through this, last night was just so bad I didn’t know what to do…

At least I am out of the soulless environment, I hope the people I do like, get saved… they are trying to hang on… they need to get out… I will keep in touch with some of them, and hope for the best.

Today I will be doing a lot of “me” time and the Bible… missing church last week was the big mistake I made… next week I will miss church due to the fact I will be out of town, but I keep to keep the bond strong between me and God, and it needs to grow.

I haven’t had motivation to text people anymore, I don’t know why, when I do the convostations are short – maybe because I really dislike my phone, and I want a different one, I am actually considering going back to my old phone, even when it has bad battery, but I just cannot stand my phone. (no more smart phones for me) I really cant get used to it and I had it for more than 6 months.

I got the job, I passed the drug test, and Target took an advange to beat me down but they failed bad. Now that I will be in a better environment, pays a lot more, and it has a future for me… and they tried to harm it… well it failed for them. I will walk back into Target as a shopper tomorrow, and I may see them, but I expect good service or I will file a complaint.

I hope for the best for Target, maybe they will do some good, my job is giving back to the community.

I talked to my best friend yesterday, it kinda helped, over the VP (video phone) I do miss him a lot – hes in cali, and I wish he would still be here.. but hes happy.

I have so much changes i need to make - re connect with my friends... I am so nervous about starting a new carreer... it is a scary thing to go through

Got to run,

God bless

Amber