excited - busy days ahead of me

Good Morning Everyone,

Well, for starters, I need to practice my typing with the new nails I gotten yesterday they might be a tad bit too long but they are pretty short. I know I am happy with them because it looks much better than it was when I had my real nails.

Today is going to be a super busy day, I need to vacuum all the rooms, and clean the kitchen floor, do laundry so we wouldn’t have any really but our night clothes and the clothes we wear today.

I am pretty excited I am going to ocean shores this weekend, well tomorrow, and I get to see my family that I don’t see very often. It will be a lot of fun, I am perfectly happy staying in and play cards with my grandma and my aunt, and my little cousins. I don’t need to spend a lot of money, we will try to go like 4 5 times in a year, but sadly this is the first time this year we go up there, we went up there for new years but we also left, so hopefully we will go three more times I can only hope, the summer is coming up. we already planned some travels, for my birthday week, we will go down to Oregon I think, up in the mountains, it will be very romantic and we will be taking our dog. But nothing has been set in stone yet, and in June, well, we haven’t decided but it sounds like we will be going down a lil south because my husband’s favorite place to fish is there. And our two year wedding anniversary is this summer, we haven’t decided what we are going to do, hopefully next year I will go to CALI, and FLDA. I would love to go to Cali, I do miss Mario so very much.

For those who doesn’t know who he is, he is one of my best friends, and when he moved (when I started dating chris at the time) it felt like part of me gotten torn apart. But I knew he would be happier there, which he is. I love him so much, I wish he was still here for the times I am going through right now, I could really use him. Not to mention he can help me understand what goes in a guy’s mind. Basically he is my brother, we grew up together, we known each other since preschool, we been through so much in our life it is just unbearable to imagine if I ever lost Whitney and Mario… they are a part of me. Honesty, I am not sure how many people has what we have.

It is wonderful to watch some of our friends grow, Whitney is the next one to get married (June 26….).

I am very anxious about the next 10 days… or so…

TODAY  - housework/laundry and pack – plus I will have both dogs…

Friday – we leave, plus run a few errands like oil change, poop patrol at dads, and head down to ocean shores

Sat to sun – ocean shores

Sunday – head home –my sister in law and father in law’s birthday party so we will be stopping there

Monday – the new job starts…. Will be a very very busy day for me

Tuesday – work plus bridesmaid fitting at like 530

Thrusday – work and dr appointment

Friday – I am considering to get my eye brows waxed after work but if not ill do it Saturday and I believe I will attend to a poker night – which is so great I will have weekends OFFFFFFFFFFF no more unpredictable hours…

Saturday – hair donation time – will have a whole new look – no one has seen my picture, it will be a total surprise. It wont be boring straight down I will tell you that much but if it charges, I will b happy to because I will not go to super cuts and get a new style I will need to go to a place that has experiences on hair cuts (I know its shallow but its hard to trust chain hair places to goof up) and our book club! <3

Sunday – day off – church

This is so exciting… I will try to avoid plans during the week days because I wont have a lot of time to cook, do housework like I used to – or bead – which I have lost motivation, but last night my husband took me out for dinner last night to celebrate the new job, he told me to do it, and forget those who disencourages me. But for those who did – do I still make something for them? I don’t think I will make for those who didn’t appreciate it… I know it is stupid but it kinda hurt when they didn’t appreciate…

I do have potentials. Yesterday I gave a ankle bracelet to a friend – she liked it and put it on after she had her pedi and it fits. :-) it does make me happy to see others who are happy.

Gotta get ready for the day – or not – I have a lot of housework to do, if I finish it I need to be able to read my book club book – I am over half way through it… but I need to:

Vacuum

Clean the kitchen floor

Laundry

Clean the bathroom

Defiantly do something about the end table that is piled up with mail crap.

Okay I guess I don’t have THAT much, but I need this place looking great…. I will try to do something around the house everyday even if it is 10 minutes a day.

God Bless

Amber

Ps - Oh goodnness - i forgotten the MOST important thing i am gonna do  - take a nice HOTTTTTT bath tonight... with candles, i am so much in need to relaaaaxxxxx

switching the new life...

Hey,

I needed a reality check – my husband used some verses from a prayer which reminded me, “forgive those who trespass against us” I say it every week in church. I knew it was another message from God. So I started to read the Bible more the other day, when I start to feel distance, I go right back to the Bible. I was thinking in my head – which I knew Jesus and God heard me, how I think they are amazing. They helped me through the bad patches of my life.

After this week, I am going to soar. I am a bird stuck in a nest, not quite ready to fly but someone is going to push me out, and I need to fly. My dream was to work in the office, I had a taste, and I fell in love with it and I gotten the job. Now it is my turn to fly. After my experiences with retail, I don’t think I would ever work for retail again, not that I want to. I know I deserve better. Perfect environment – no phones involved. It will get me far in my life, I am about to write a new chapter of my life.

I am having a slow makeover – I already gotten new glasses, this week nails, I gotten some new clothes, but it wont stop me from shopping more, I want a lot of clothes so I can have 3 weeks worth of clothes (I want to be creative). And I am really excited and nervous about my hair cut, I had long hair for a long time.

I mentioned I was scared and nervous to start my new career. It is a scary thought, it is a scary thing to go through. Because its so new, and you are gonna explore, but I will have people there to make me feel right at home.

After the whole fake coach purse – I saved up some money, and I bought:

Purse

Coin purse (is a keychain too)

Wallet

Make up bag (wrist purse)

All coach – and it made me happy, I had a major savings. I have been wanting a new coach for so long, before my black one, I have been wanting a coach for such a long time. I want to have at lest 4 coach purses – so I can have a variety. I mean, if one day I feel like I want this one, I will switch. The thing about coach purses, I always heard how great they are – and someone had her one purse for 15 years. And I have spent like 30 40 bucks on my purses and they break after a few months. I know coach is expensive, but the coach outlit is my new best friend! Along with the body works lol! I stocked up on body wash, so I wont need body wash in a few months or longer, since my job wont allow me to have scented perfume/body spray so my sprays will last a long time because it will be for the weekend – and that is okay.

I am extremely excited Bible study is coming up soon – I think it will be Tuesday nights but I don’t know yet… but I know I am jumping with joy for this, I have waited a long time, and I will meet new catholic friends!!! I am looking forward to making new friends with my church.

This lent has been so smooth, I am surprised I haven’t been cranky when it comes to not having dessert food that we gave up for Lent.

Yesterday I had my rings cleaned (wedding rings) which its nice and sparkly. I was drooling over this necklace I really wanted – its emerald. But I know I have enough jewelries as it is.

I gotta take off – I am taking my dad to his appointment. Headphones (check) phone (check) and book (check)

God Bless

Amber

Updates on me...

Hey,

I know another blog today – I started to think – I haven’t really been updating about me…

Well we know I am no longer working at Target, I am going to Esales, which is a whole lot more money than Target was providing.

Things here has been very stressful, I am not sure where to begin, I completely lost it last night. I was so out of it I didn’t even want to get out of bed this morning, but the only thing I had to do to get out of bed knowing I had to get up and go to my dad’s house for Poop patrol.

I am becoming more independent, for some reason I have been busy with life it self, and I gotten more beads, but I am experiencing lack of motivation. My stuff is just sitting there being unused – I think I am going to end this hobby. I was going to make a whole bunch to give out or sell for lil bucks, but, I just don’t know.  I know I just cannot wait to go to work, start my new job. My weekends are getting pretty busy quick, I want to start making plans for MY friends, almost all of my weekends in June is booked up – first weekend I will go out of town, second weekend baby shower, but I will try not to make any plans for that Sunday, because knowing me, I want a BREAK I will be working 40 hours a week, I need a break I don’t need to be on the go like I have been lately, the weekend after that I am keeping that clear ON PURPOSE, any plans or invitation I will immediately decline (so please don’t ask) until I know if my best friend is having a bach party, there is NO way I am going to miss that party EVER. Then the weekend after that I have the wedding I am one of the bridesmaid. Then the last weekend, I am free… *whew* I might just keep that purposely cleared for ME. I wont have much time to do housework… nothing in July YET maybe the first weekend…

April – well I am busy the first two weekends but I think the third Saturday I am going to take Buffy for her bath, she NEEDS it ugh smelling like a dog already. I would like to make a plan with a friend of mine to visit Pike’s market – and visit the FIRST starbucks… :-D I do miss having starbucks.

May – all weekend is booked up on Saturdays – I try to keep the Sundays open but hey other things happens.

I haven’t been doing any reading, it is so bad that for my book club “eat pray love” I forgotten what have happened… I might have to re read the whole book, and I am almost done, for some reason I just start to think of other things… *sighs* and I haven’t been using the kindle – I just don’t have time to read – if I do I try to read the Bible. I feel icky because I haven’t read the Bible in a while, I was just reading the Bible and I had the urge to come on here.

I would love to meet new people – I would really love that – but the question is… where do I start? :-/ my friends are pretty far from me – and I would like to meet some local people.

I love hosting events but I haven’t, I was going to have a candle party, but I canceled due to some past tense drama. But I ended up having other things like a major girl pamper time.

I know I might have mentioned this – monthly I will be getting a pedi, weds I will get my nails done, which I cannot wait. I am really gonna start looking more professional than a icky bum you see. I cannot wait to donate my hair – my hair cut is going to be extremely different and cute. I am pretty nervous about it. It will happen the same day of the Book club and it will totally WOW the girls – I am thinking of getting my eye brows waxed the day before too… I wont have time to do it that day. (yeah my eye brows are starting to be icky well they are I might just do it before hand, yep call it a SLOWWWW make over)

I am so excited for my new job, it will be one step closer to my successful future, this is a perfect office environment, I am not sitting at a desk ALL day, there will be SOME physical activity, I get to see things and research things. All I can hope is I can work hard move up to the next level, this job will take me somewhere… somewhere far and successful. I see myself with this company for a very very long time, one of the best thing is this is a non profit company, and I will be working to give back to the community, which will give me so much more pride and I would be very proud… I am very excited.

I really cannot think of anything else…

Take care! God Bless,

Amber

Changes to make...

Morning,

Yesterday was just so unbelieveably bad…

I walked out on target, the place is just so dark it affected my personality yesterday, it was so bad, I wrote something so nasty till someone called on it on facebook, I wrote a better one, no names no name calling no anger.

I read some of the bible, thanks to God he has helped me through yesterday I was completely alone going through this, last night was just so bad I didn’t know what to do…

At least I am out of the soulless environment, I hope the people I do like, get saved… they are trying to hang on… they need to get out… I will keep in touch with some of them, and hope for the best.

Today I will be doing a lot of “me” time and the Bible… missing church last week was the big mistake I made… next week I will miss church due to the fact I will be out of town, but I keep to keep the bond strong between me and God, and it needs to grow.

I haven’t had motivation to text people anymore, I don’t know why, when I do the convostations are short – maybe because I really dislike my phone, and I want a different one, I am actually considering going back to my old phone, even when it has bad battery, but I just cannot stand my phone. (no more smart phones for me) I really cant get used to it and I had it for more than 6 months.

I got the job, I passed the drug test, and Target took an advange to beat me down but they failed bad. Now that I will be in a better environment, pays a lot more, and it has a future for me… and they tried to harm it… well it failed for them. I will walk back into Target as a shopper tomorrow, and I may see them, but I expect good service or I will file a complaint.

I hope for the best for Target, maybe they will do some good, my job is giving back to the community.

I talked to my best friend yesterday, it kinda helped, over the VP (video phone) I do miss him a lot – hes in cali, and I wish he would still be here.. but hes happy.

I have so much changes i need to make - re connect with my friends... I am so nervous about starting a new carreer... it is a scary thing to go through

Got to run,

God bless

Amber

take control.....

Good Morning my friends,

It has been a lil while since I have updated. I would like to count my blessing this morning. I don’t know if people realize how lucky each one of them are. If they don’t, they just don’t want to see it. everyone will have their bad luck moments, but the more one thinks negative, the more one allow the badness to happen to them.

I try to keep positive, and try to think good, I make sure I ask Jesus to save me when the Devil tries to control my thoughts to negative. I do not judge like I used to, I do not think badly about others or myself like I used to. No need, the more I think badly the more I am going towards the darkness… God calls me, and tries to pull me back into the light. I am not saying I would go to Hell, but I would miss out on a lot of the stuff God has to offer instead of the Devil.

I have not heard from the Job yet, I will call them today, if I do not get this job, I will be extremely bummed because this is the job I really want, but I know I will have more confidence to do some job searching else where. I know I will find a job that accepts me for me, appreciates me and my hard working and a positive environment. I still hope I get this job, but it is all up to God, I am letting him take hands, but I know if my prayers aren’t answered, this job isn’t for me.

Some people may still think negative towards me, acts negative towards me, hanging on to the negative side…. I pray for those, everyone should be happy with everything they have, even if they cannot stand the person/thing they deal with. Stress is one of the bad things people have to deal with their everyday life, but we shouldn’t take upon pity. God would want us to move forward, and love our life, if there is something we cannot love, fix it – that’s what I am doing. I love my life, I love everything except one thing, I have to leave and open another door God has to offer me. You know what they say “When one door closes another opens that’s what God has to offer you” these thoughts in my head wanting to test God but I make sure I say “I do not test him” then the more thoughts, again I say “Jesus save me” even if it is a few times, but I know the Devil still feels he can control my thoughts and action. I will not let myself fall again. He is mad that I am back on the right path.

I guess my faith has shaken when it turns out that my favorite priest that I actually wanted him to marry me and my future husband, gotten attacked, one sick person thinks they could get money from the Catholics saying he molested him, and we know it isn’t true, he resigned and went through the investigation he was proven innocent, he left because he didn’t want us to go through the bad things they are creating. Which is very considerate of him, but it was one of the most heartbroken, hardest thing I had to deal with. I cried so hard, I kept the magazine article, I couldn’t believe some sick person out there would attack the innocent. Because of the Devil controlling that horrible soulless man to hurt a innocent man. I know I need to let that go, but that was the hardest moment of my life, my path gotten crooked the Devil took an advantage of that and pulled me away. It will not happen again. God has worked so hard to pull me back, after years of not going to Church, was a big mistake, I should have never turned my back to my church. The things I was involved with, I cannot take it back but I know God forgives me, it has been blocked out of my memories I don’t even remember them anymore, I don’t want to remember the bad.

Catholic jokes – are NOT funny, they are extremely hurtful towards me and my relgion. I would appreciate if one doesn’t say anything mean towards the Catholic, or bad jokes. They are the trigger (Including Micheal Jackson – I believe in my heart he was innocent) if one says something bad, I will confront “I think that is not funny, and I am Catholic that is a insult towards me” if they ask me why I will tell them because that is how I feel, and I would appreciate if one doesn’t do it again around me. People I see I should expect them to know how to treat one or another – including the knowledge of how to talk to each other. If they are Black – do you tell a racist joke to the black person if your white? No you don’t – its pretty much like that. This may sound snotty but its pretty much common sense. I do not know any Catholic jokes because no one says anything, and I appreciate that no one did.

I am gonna get around, I am already on my second cup of coffee – today is St. Patricks day – it is my grandfather’s birthday and my cat’s 6^th birthday.

Have a blessed day

God Bless,

Ambr

Questions.... more questions...

Good Morning,

After I wrote my entry about my near death experience last night (On facebook). It had me thinking, I had the most important question that needs to be asked… I had this same question for years and it came up just now… I need to speak with my priest. I am so nervous to hear the answer because I think it will hurt me if it is the bad news…My mother in law left me a comment about how she likes to think her mom is watching over her and protect her. Had me thinking about what about my family members that has passed away?

I had my uncle before I was born, my mom’s husband, and my great grandmother and my two other great grandparents that I met and I remember everything about them  – I still have many memories about each one of them, including my uncle, I hear so many stories… who is the one protecting me? Who is my angel? (That isn’t the question I need to ask) there are some things I cant even admit, I try to talk about it with my husband, but it is the hardest subject to talk about. As a child I went through things I shouldn’t have been put through, but it made me stronger, and for our kids I hope they NEVER experience the things they did as a child like I did. I turned out very lucky. I had one of the best childhood I could think of, maybe not as good as most but the best I could think of, my parents did their best…. They are the best. I couldn’t ask for anyone better.

I am not questioning my faith, I am wanting to LOOK for answers… I hope I find them. even if this happened many years ago, it STILL hurts me. Everyone has experience loss in their lives. Weather they want to admit it or not. I lost some very important people in my life, and I am so terrified to know who is next, because I am so close to my family, and the “second family” I have created. My brother and sisters, (that includes Mario and Whitney). I feel those two are my blooded… always have. no one is ever going to take that away from us. Even if one doesn’t feel the way I do.

I am sitting here with my mind racing all over the place, I am truly blessed with what I have. I am still pretty shaken up, and I don’t know why. I know it is the hardest thing people have to go through, and also sit here and think about who they have lost, who saved you. The one thing that adds up – God – he granted me this, he gave me everything, he lead me to paths, he gave me the Angels. My love have grown so much… all I can I say is Thank you God. I have so many questions I want answered, I know I wont know them all, but it will take time.

I have been so sensitive lately, God helped soften my heart, I cried about Japan, I cried about my friends and their worries about the people in Cali and Hawaii and Japan. I cried for their pain, because I couldn’t take it away but pray. I try not to pray for my selfness… I pray for others. It almost makes me feel guilty to ask people to pray for me to get this job, I gotten a job interview yesterday I believe it went well.

After last night I should have been hurt or killed… it isn’t going to leave my head… it makes you think twice…

I have to get around for the day

Have a blessed weekend, God Bless,

Amber

My gift is yours...

Hey Everyone,

I should be getting ready for the day… I made a mistake craming things in today… but that is okay. I am pretty nervous because I will be handing out some present to a couple of women today. I hope they like my work. I ordered some stuff from online some crosses, and I posted it on facebook I could make three more who ever wants them, but I realize I am OUT of wires… the strong kind, I will have to pick some up this weekend. This hobby is very addicting, I ignored my duties as a housewife so today its going to kick my butt… I got to scrub down the kitchen and clean the living room, and while my husband has game night tonight… no bath – its folding laundry. That’s what I get for getting distracted, and I need to read the Bible some more, I completed April’s reading which I was very excited.

I went to Mass yesterday morning, left work early just for it, gotten his pamphlet I cant wait to read every one of those readings they provide. I am considering going to church 2 3 times a week while I am not working as much. Why not? If the message is going to be different, I can hear the messages and pray even more.

I posted this on facebook the other day – I just couldn’t believe how awesome God is, something I needed to hear during my hardship that I am going through.

2 Samuel 22:2

The LORD is my rock and my fortress, and my deliverer.

Who could ask for a better verse for a time like this?! It just makes me so motivated to read more and more of his WORDS. The Devil still comes out and wanting to play with my mind, wasn’t going to happen. He tried to trick me when I didn’t get the job I was encouraged to apply (still waiting) but I knew it was a good thing. I gotten a letter from a friend in Togo – Do not ask me where that is – I have no idea. A new pen pal, he is a Priest in training, he wants to be one, he has to starve himself from the internet world, the day I came home from my last day of the temp job, I gotten a letter he cheered me up, and I smiled because I was able to still learn. It was a message from God, I just know it. I was bummed but I finished the job with a smile on my face, I thanked God for this opportunity that I had.

Here is another interesting quote – from the ST. Thomas Aquinas

“Without work it’s impossible to have fun”

It had me thinking about this one, I knew the work of going to the path of God is fun, doing the things for other people is work and it is fun, working hard in life to get things is fun, even if one doesn’t like the job. I am working on Beading, and it gives me the pleasure of how happy one can get.

Yesterday morning, I went to work (Target) this co worker of mine, she bumped into me a few weeks ago at a craft store and she asked what I was getting I explained first timer and etc. she said “You should make me one of those…” I said “You want one?” she said yes… I said okay. Then two weeks later, I made all four bracelet the same that day, but I didn’t know when I would see her I asked her last week if she would be here (yesterday) and she said yes. Yesterday I brought it and I gave it to her, her eyes lit up, she was so happy, she was telling me how beautiful it was, and she was so grateful. I know she will cherish it. she didn’t think I was serious, of course I was. After giving a friend a bracelet the first gift I gave away she liked it, then my Aunt, I saw more happiness. I didn’t want to stop, I am so addicted to making things and giving it to people. There was no way I could make a lot of things and keychains for up for grabs and let it sit here. I would not wear them all.

My sister in law’s birthday is coming up, I have a present ready for her, then I have another sister in law’s birthday coming up, I will make her something too – I gotten a lot of small blue beads, I am a lil bored of blue right now, so this weekend I hope to get more beads and they will be different color, then I will go back to blue and finish them, no more buying in BULK! Lol.

Corinthians 10:20

I do not want you to be partners with demons.

One of the things I don’t have an understanding, I still don’t, how can someone allow the Devil take one’s soul? I want to help the soulless people but I cant – at least not right now I am not strong enough to defeat the harm that it could cause me and God. All I can do is be there if one needs me there. I can hope I help to light a match for them to start making room for light, and get the darkness to go away.

I don’t want any demons around me. If I am in a unsafe environment, I try to make things better for myself and them, or if it is that bad, I need to leave I couldn’t be alone. How can I face multiple demons alone? The Devil still tries to test me. I read something interesting (and I knew) but it was an important reminder, how the Devil tried to test Jesus. Telling him tell God to do this for that, and he told the Devil there will be no testing God to see if he is real. HE IS REAL. I pray to him I hope the prayers help, but I know sometimes I ask too much, but I will not expect him to grant it. I pray for other people more than I pray for myself, I don’t want to have a greed. If one doesn’t get answered, I will not blame God, nothing is his fault, he didn’t cause any of this, this is the plan, this is the future he sees.

I gotta get off and get ready for the day.

God Bless

Amber

new hobby, more desire to adopt...

Hello Everyone,

I have been naughty, I think after this blog I will be reading the Bible I was supposed to on Sunday but I didn’t have time or want to make time, I gotten too addicted to my Beading hobby I just discovered I have a talent, I want to expand. It will be my gift to people. I can only hope people like it. I do realize I do have the risk of being shoot down by some people who doesn’t have appreciation for it.

I started to think after reading http://www.nwae.org/Profile-WARE-dbC.php?tn=3&case=c7980 I want to adopt this boy. Sadly I don’t have anything ready to be able to or the approval of adopting a child. I am pretty sure my husband wouldn’t agree to it. but he seems so wonderful, I can understand because we don’t have money for kids right now. It is my ultimate dream to have a deaf child. I am pretty sure our child will not be deaf, which is why I want to adopt a deaf child. This deaf child (adopted) may not be accepted by some people, but I am up for that challenge and I will not allow people to treat my children like they are nothing. They are going to be precious gift from God, and if they cant accept that one of my child is going to be deaf, or adopted, heck with them. those people will not understand my feelings.

My children will not be living in pity, when we have kids, the other kids on his side will be older and fleeing from the homes and our children would be younger, its going to be a odd mix, my family don’t really do birthdays but going out and buy dinner and etc, but my in laws do birthdays for everyone, which is pretty cool. This year, I am not sure if I will host my birthday “cake and icecream” like they do, I never have since I was with my husband. Would it be worth to start now?  The last “birthday party” I had was my 25^th and my mom’s 50^th it was very last minute we each invited two friends there was no family other than my dad because well he is her spouse. But before that, I was like 14?

This year I would like to expand my Bead hobby, and buy myself a new coach purse… I know I just got one, but it was a total fake, and I was extremely upset, it is not like I ask a lot, so I am going to go down to the store and buy me a real one. A purse is not just a purse… not to me.

We are going to go on a birthday trip for me, but I am not sure where, or if I should, but if we go away, it would love it to be just the two of us, there is so much distraction here, I think we deserve a get away no friends, no families, no nothing. Go somewhere where we don’t have cell phone receptions, no internet, nothing. Too many technologies that gets in our way, that is a problem when it comes to couples. I remember the deacon told us that they have ways to break up a couple with things in the way. This is one of them, getting distracted with phones, tv, games and they ignore each other and lose communications. I don’t want that to happen. My husband is a Gamer, and I will make sure I go first before the xbox.

I am off to read the Bible and write to God. I haven’t heard anything about the job, I am in the waiting game, I am supposed to get an interview…

God Bless

Amber

You are Perfect.... I am perfect...

Good Morning,

I am in the process of trying to get things set for my new email account (Professional like) and it doesn’t seem like I can change my blogs, but I might have to try to copy and paste through words so it stays there…. I don’t know yet.

How is everyone today? Good I hope.

I am pretty nervous for today, since I have already discussed the temp job I am at right now, today would be the day I would find out, if not, tomorrow will be my last day there. My fingers are crossed, I prayed and prayed…. A friend of mine reminded me to trust in God, and I am so nervous, I prayed for him to help me calm… and he has so far…. This job is what I want, what I need.

I will be happy if it starts at MIM wage instead of the normal start pay, it will also help us live comfortably. I didn’t ask for benefits… (I already have my husband’s)

Next week I have an appointment with the eye place, and I picked out really cute glasses, its very very different from what I am used to… I am taking a risk to have this one, if I am lucky I will get two pairs with my second insurance.

God has been so good to me, since I have been in the bad patch for a while, with everything, I am already seeing me and my friends are drifting, but I know God will grant me with friends, I am not pushing them away, we all have our different views. I will always love them. there will always be my life long friends that I have been friends since with since elementary school.

God has created this world, on this world there is so many different race, so many different backgrounds, so many everything. I am deaf, and I am on this earth, I am proud that I am jointed in every culture. It is amazing, I am always curious about everyone’s religion. I will ask questions about them, see what they worship. I do my best not to preach, and I know I am supposed to spread the word, but this is what this is for, along with my experiences. I hope he isn’t upset that I am not doing it for facebook.

I have been listening to more Iworship music. And I am loving the words, every week I go to Church, and I love the songs they picked out for us to sing. I am loving how awesome he is… I am learning more and more everyday. Every time I think of him, I feel so proud.

Right now the song “Our God is an Awesome God”  this song has so much to it…

Deuteronomy 32:4

“The Rock is his work is perfect: for all his ways are justices”

This quote really got to me, made me to write it down… everything he made is perfect in so many ways. We all hear “we are not perfect…” but you are… look at you, you look in the mirror you make a judgment of yourself bad or good. But he created you, you are so beautiful. I looked in the mirror today and I was proud of myself, not because I tried to get healthier, but I am now realizing how perfect I can be that he has created.

Hebrews 13:4

Do not neglect to do good and to do share what you have for such sacrifices are pleasing to God.

This one, is also very good to remind us to share. I know I don’t do enough volunteer work, but I have been doing Caring For Kids since I was 16 years old, almost 10 years, which is amazing, I am growing my hair out long to donate my hair. I have so many gifts to offer, some I haven’t discovered. I discovered that I can make jewelry, I can share that gift by donating, or make gifts for people. I recently discovered that like last weekend. I have my hair to offer for those kids who needs hair. Even when I have grey hair I will still offer it for older people. I have so much pride in myself and my self. I have my motivation to share, like this job, I come in (even at Target) with a positive mood, hoping it influence the others. Even if some are not successful, those negative people will stay negative as long as they want. I know I have to offer people to get out of that. This temp job I have been working at, very positive, and very friendly, this one lady who has to deal with angry customers, and I praise her for it, I know it cannot be easy to deal with all the negativity. Kudos to her.

The one thing I try to avoid is the negative mood.

I have to get off and finish get ready, pray for me to get the job/keep your fingers crossed…

God Bless

Amber